pretending

You put on a mask, so nobody really sees you. but what you goen thru is surely nuthin new. im sure theres many people that kould b put in ur shoes. so wat u need to do, it truely get a clue. kusz no matter what haoppens imma styll b here for you.
people tell you that they love you for the person that you are. But once they really kno u dey attitude becomes bizzare. they start to play you like a guitar and burn ya pride jus like a cuban cigar.
Your proud of who you are, but you dont know how they'll feel. but sumtymes you gotta learn ta suk ya pride up n deal. if u aint bein you den is it worth it foreal?listen to your heart and not wat people call ideal.
Truthfully i can say nuthing else. Because saying i dont pretend would be lying to myself. My story is enough to fill up a book shelf.
i say that im alraight and i say that i dont care. But thats not wat my lord hears wen he listens to my prayer. im like an asthmatic gasping for pure air. i live my life in despair, and that i must declare. Im standing here aware of my unwanted affair, because gurl on gurl sex some people cannot bare. i wont tell my parents because there judgement i do fear. would they understand or would they shed a dreadful tear.
i could go on and on about the things i'd like to share. but because im so kind, ur time i will spare.

Sexing You

Lolsz... I was just on the phone with a friend n felt like jotting this down, so tell me what you think:

Baby, what will it take to turn you on? What if I cook your favorite meal n serve you dinner by candle light? Would you appreciate the time i spent. I want to lick the crumbs off ya lips n look into your eyes. I want to take a bath with you. You wash me down, i wash you. When thats over and done i want to rub you down with lotion. {dis shyt isz wak asz hell,, im boutta switch it up,, fuk proper english}. You gunna have me for desert, but babie im hungry too. So afta ur meal isz done den im eatn u. you got ma legs around ya neck and my hands grippin the covers. Damn you lick it right, im so glad dat chu ma luver. Ya tongue is doin wonders, got me in another world. Got the the blood rushin through ma veins n ma toes begin to curl. Ma pussy starts to tighten and ma body gets real weak. Im screamin out ya name n we tearin up da sheetz. You slide ya finger inside den u lick around ma neck. Im moanin in ya ear n now u grabbin on ma breasts. It feels like we're on fire so the steam begins to rise. You open me up wider, with your head between my thighs........................lmao nah im done fa now dasz enough...holla at mii if u wanna kno wat kums next!!!

Homophobia

Homophobia is common topic. My opinion: What is the point, honestly? Why spend so much time on something you don't like? If you don't like gay people, that is fine, nobody is forcing you to like homosexuals. I understand that there are certain things about people that you just cannot stand and that is ok. But why do people go so far as to wish death upon people that they do not know? Oh yea, what i really do not get is why people stress the fact that they are christians and what not then proceed to say " fuck you, you stupid fag, i hope you burn in hell, if god doesn't send you to hell then i will; i will set u on fine and watch you burn u stupid whore."? If your a Christian and you are trying to inform me of my sins, then why are committing like 4 in one sentence? that is called being a judgmental, ignorant, hypocritical, idiot. You are swearing, judging, and wishing bad unto others all in one sentence.....damn. If you are going to come at me with a religion factor, come at me correct or don't come at all. see, i go to church and I've read the bible from cover to cover and yes homosexuality is a sin, along with cursing, adultery, lust, lying, stealing, and doing bad unto others, and i'm pretty sure you do at least one of those, if not everyday then every week. People sin every single day, does that mean everyone is going to hell, or everyone is a bad person...no! That is why Jesus died for our sins, so we could be forgiven! So stop spending your time judging my actions and worry about your life. Let god determine who goes to heaven.