First Love

Inspired by Joe: Feel For You & my first love!!

Just some old thaughts

I use to think that love only happened in the movies.

Never thaught that it would happen to me.

But it did, i was wrong, and it caught me by surprise.

I was filled with joy the moment i looked into your eyes.

When you came into my life you changed me for the good.

You had me doing things that i never thaught i could.

There wasnt a day that went by without a smile on my face.

And now i feel that your love can never be replaced.

I still remember two years ago when we first met.

You had a pocket full of condoms and cigarettes.

I quickly told myself that you were not the one for me.

But we talked and i found that your mind was deeper than the sea.

As time passed by you slowly began to change.

The i knew that to you, love was no game.

You first captured my mind and then my soul.

Then i realized that you were the piece that made me whole.

But at the time i blocked of emotions that led to love.

Then you looked me in my eyes and asked me what i was scared of.

I told you that it was that had me scared.

A broken heart was something i wouldnt be able to bare.

You took my hands and said that i was all you'd been looking for.

You said that i was the one that you adored.

At that time you captured the key to my heart.

Then our love began to climb the charts.

But i knew sooner or later our love would fade.

And that thaught left me very afraid.

Just as i thaught we started talking less and less.

You made occasional visits to my address.

The love we had has never been the same.

We made fire but someone blew out the flame.

Now all we have is a loving friendship.

You claim you dont know how you let me slip.

When you left i felt my heart crack into a million pieces.

Now the love i have to give continuously decreases.

I wish i could just erase you from my life and my mind.

But everytime i try and move on i seem to rewind.

No matter how hard i try your something i cant get rid off.

But now i understand that its because you were my FIRST LOVE

Factual

Wrote this a while back...

Sitting in the car,

thaughts racing through my head.

I wish you were here,

laying with me in my bed.

Every day My feeling for you,

seem to grow deeper and stronger.

And i just cant seem,

to keep my feeling inside any longer.

I can hardly find the words to say,

that forever in my heart you will stay.

I have never loved anyone,

the way that i love you.'

Im here to make,

all your dreams come true. ;p

I had no expectation,

of me loving you this much.

The only thing i have now,

is the need for your touch.

Your always on my mind,

and its driving me insane!

I only hope that

this love doesnt turn to pain.

I have been hurt so many times,

That now it just feel natural.

But im truly on a search for,

a love that is factual.

soft sounds

The way she looks at me,
takes ma breath away.
Run ha fingas thru ma hair,
she lights up ma day.

hmmm....non=rhyming poetry can i do it. idk. letsz see...not ma style but oh well

Invite me to da kryb
put me on da couch
wisper sweat nuthings in my ear
try to make me laugh
keep a smile on my face
fill the air with the soft sound of laughter

lay me on my back
look deep into my eyes
read my mind and my soul
leave soft kiszes on my neck
sweat moans in your ear
your fingersz slowly run down my soft skin

your lips pressed against mine
the sound of sweat romance
we're makin love and it feels so gud
slow sex musiq in da background
onli thing on my mind
is lovin you like never before

What is love?

Theres a question that seems to run through my head very often. What is love?

Why do people love love when love causes so much pain? Imma share what love means to me.

When i think of love i think of the feeling you get when someone is the first one on your mind when you wake up and the last one on your mind before you go to sleep. When you cant help but think about that one person no matter how hard you try. To the point where just the sound of their voice seems to take all your troubles away and fill your life with joy. If you go one day without them you feel like your life is incomplete. When you year for the touch of someone so much that your skin begins to tingle and when you no longer get butterflies when they come around, but get filled with full grown birds. Love is like magic. It can make you think things and do things you would never normally do. Love is something that i believe everyone should experience. But dont look for love in the wrong places. When you do that you get your heart broken and that is truly one of the worst feeling emotionally. Love can make you and love can break you so be careful who you fall for.

Gone

Isz it bad that i dont believe i could ever feel sorry for the father i have?
They tell me the way i think about him will pasz.
He says he loves me and that he really cares.
But the truth of the matter is he's never really there.
He says he cant tend to my every want and need.
But all i need to kno is that his love is guaranteed.
He alwaysz complains when i do something bad.
But forgets to appreciate what i do to make him glad.
Im sitting in the dentist as these thaughts fill my head.
Will life go on the same if my father is pronounced dead?
all i would lose is the man who cuts the lawn.
In all it would feel like nothings really gone.

So i look to my father who reigns up above.
Because he i know, can provide unconditional love.
Throught the thick and the thin, hes been by my side.
When i did wrong, there was no need for me to hide.
He is always forgiving and gives advice the best.
I can count on hym to relive my stresz.
I didnt believe in hym until i was about to fall.
Then he gave me the strength so that i could stand tall.
After the day that i confessed all my sins.
I truly tried my best to live my life for him.
Every day that we live from dusk till done,
I'll do the what i kno is right kusz he'll never be gone

pretending

You put on a mask, so nobody really sees you. but what you goen thru is surely nuthin new. im sure theres many people that kould b put in ur shoes. so wat u need to do, it truely get a clue. kusz no matter what haoppens imma styll b here for you.
people tell you that they love you for the person that you are. But once they really kno u dey attitude becomes bizzare. they start to play you like a guitar and burn ya pride jus like a cuban cigar.
Your proud of who you are, but you dont know how they'll feel. but sumtymes you gotta learn ta suk ya pride up n deal. if u aint bein you den is it worth it foreal?listen to your heart and not wat people call ideal.
Truthfully i can say nuthing else. Because saying i dont pretend would be lying to myself. My story is enough to fill up a book shelf.
i say that im alraight and i say that i dont care. But thats not wat my lord hears wen he listens to my prayer. im like an asthmatic gasping for pure air. i live my life in despair, and that i must declare. Im standing here aware of my unwanted affair, because gurl on gurl sex some people cannot bare. i wont tell my parents because there judgement i do fear. would they understand or would they shed a dreadful tear.
i could go on and on about the things i'd like to share. but because im so kind, ur time i will spare.

Sexing You

Lolsz... I was just on the phone with a friend n felt like jotting this down, so tell me what you think:

Baby, what will it take to turn you on? What if I cook your favorite meal n serve you dinner by candle light? Would you appreciate the time i spent. I want to lick the crumbs off ya lips n look into your eyes. I want to take a bath with you. You wash me down, i wash you. When thats over and done i want to rub you down with lotion. {dis shyt isz wak asz hell,, im boutta switch it up,, fuk proper english}. You gunna have me for desert, but babie im hungry too. So afta ur meal isz done den im eatn u. you got ma legs around ya neck and my hands grippin the covers. Damn you lick it right, im so glad dat chu ma luver. Ya tongue is doin wonders, got me in another world. Got the the blood rushin through ma veins n ma toes begin to curl. Ma pussy starts to tighten and ma body gets real weak. Im screamin out ya name n we tearin up da sheetz. You slide ya finger inside den u lick around ma neck. Im moanin in ya ear n now u grabbin on ma breasts. It feels like we're on fire so the steam begins to rise. You open me up wider, with your head between my thighs........................lmao nah im done fa now dasz enough...holla at mii if u wanna kno wat kums next!!!

Homophobia

Homophobia is common topic. My opinion: What is the point, honestly? Why spend so much time on something you don't like? If you don't like gay people, that is fine, nobody is forcing you to like homosexuals. I understand that there are certain things about people that you just cannot stand and that is ok. But why do people go so far as to wish death upon people that they do not know? Oh yea, what i really do not get is why people stress the fact that they are christians and what not then proceed to say " fuck you, you stupid fag, i hope you burn in hell, if god doesn't send you to hell then i will; i will set u on fine and watch you burn u stupid whore."? If your a Christian and you are trying to inform me of my sins, then why are committing like 4 in one sentence? that is called being a judgmental, ignorant, hypocritical, idiot. You are swearing, judging, and wishing bad unto others all in one sentence.....damn. If you are going to come at me with a religion factor, come at me correct or don't come at all. see, i go to church and I've read the bible from cover to cover and yes homosexuality is a sin, along with cursing, adultery, lust, lying, stealing, and doing bad unto others, and i'm pretty sure you do at least one of those, if not everyday then every week. People sin every single day, does that mean everyone is going to hell, or everyone is a bad person...no! That is why Jesus died for our sins, so we could be forgiven! So stop spending your time judging my actions and worry about your life. Let god determine who goes to heaven.